I had a huge bowl of ramen tonight and now am suffering a headache from salt over dose. Delicious miso and pork fat based soup topped with green onions over sliced fatty pork over bean sprouts over egg noodles.

1. god damn good- f*-vietnamese pho: sounds like ph-eu-a said with a rising wisp - one syllable
2. kidding - love pho i miss you so

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i started eating a bit more. this has given me motivation to start working out again: run, pushups, situps, stretching.

today i am beginning a new regiment of daily exercise. i had forgotten how good the adrenaline feels, coursing through your blood work, satiating your long awaited need for the fixation.

the last time i ran was early jan.

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I'm reading the game. It's a really fun read - after mark told me he was reading it, i decided that I wanted to share in this pop culture as well. As a result, I mentioned the art of picking up to a group of elderly women in one of my classes, and one of them replied, "Why did you choose such a topic?" - i quickly gave an answer in the hopes to confuse them. Honestly, I feel like a monkey doing tricks at that job sometimes.

Ever since St. Patty's day I've been really drained, and it's caused me to do more thinking about the life I lead now and the life I've lead before. I can't seem to answer the question of why I left Toronto in the first place? Right now I have no immediate goals, and I think that's what is affecting me the most. I am plagued without passion or direction. Work is a bore and my students know it sometimes. I can only feign enthusiasm so much in a week. I'm overjoyed and worried about what happens when my family comes. Being here for 5 months has confused me a bit. One thing I know though is I want to return home some day. And the more I think about I still can't find a good reason to come home. There's a smell of failure and lost pride that awaits me in Toronto. I'm not ready to face it yet.

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I found shop at Ginza. crazy, i have to travel all the way to get the finest of the fine - at a ridiculoso costo. but at least i finally found one.

a cheese shop

thanks http://bento.com

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on the train this morning i started to reminisce about those oh so happy days in toronto. then i realized i was daydreaming about my trip to cancun.

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and about time. i'm tired of starving. so i decided to indulge on some sushi today.

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so i'm searching for a career based on personality and career desires. so far after 4hrs i've come to the conclusion that i enjoy learning japanese in japan for the most part.

ESTJ

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that was today. bombed the interview. maybe just scared of committing. i actually told the guy that you do one of two things in japan: you teach english or you do recruiting.

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tomorrow is another attempt at a career to prolong my stay in japan. my devotion to the japanese language has further nurtured ideas about living here long-term. I've only conjectured the possibility of staying here for about five years - this is based on my moving history and my tendency to re-locate around a half-decades duration. recruiting: cold calling, hassling, corporate pushing. do i prostitute myself for that extra buck. I am no more a monkey than I have ever been. I'd just be learning the ropes of a good pusher, and hopefully pulling in a good pay cheque. Let's kill 'em tomorrow: interview.

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